unfair....

life is unfair. karma is bullshit. i don't say this to complain, it's just a friendly reminder. let me give you an example, say.... my life yesterday.

my brother: calls to discuss my mom's birthday present 2 days before her birthday. and is somewhat shocked to hear we already have something, and aren't interested in going together on his last minute gift certificate idea. goes out, buys his gift certificate, returns home, realizes he doesn't have his shiny new blackberry. figures it's the last place he used it - the office - and goes to pick it up before heading out to banff. gets to the office, and there it is on his desk.

me: wakes up to a cold house, and a noise that sounds like an angry garage door opener trying to kill a cat. waited until the entire house was up a couple hours later, and then went downstairs to find out what was happening. ayup - the furnace motor for the blower is dead.

phone my local plumbing and heating shop that is a dealer for my furnace brand... closed until the new year. phone choice number two, whew, they're open today. good thing too, because they're closed for the next 3 due to the long weekend new year holiday. rip the dead motor out and haul it with me. drive down, pick up the new one, drive back.

phone rings... it's some guy who found a brand new blackberry on the street. he checked the last call made, and dialed it hoping to find out who owns it. chat for a bit, turns out he's right outside my brother's office - and he offers to drop it off since he knows where it is. great. phone the office and check that he really did - yup. guy at the office says "weird, couple minutes after marc left, someone came in and dropped off his cell phone."

kill the gas. kill the breaker. disassemble the furnace as much as possible for cleaning, remove the blower. rewire the new motor, reassemble the furnace. realize the gas valve that i had trouble moving with a wrench is easily moved by finger pressure. crap. all testing indicates no leak, so what the hell - i've spent 5 hours on the cold concrete floor or outside in freezing weather - fuck it, time to fire this thing up.

nothing explodes. good. heat? yes. blower motor? nada. wait. nada. wait. nada. kicks in. whew. clean up and head upstairs.

get a phone call from my brother - he got back to the office to pick up his blackberry he forgot there, and picked up the voice mail i left telling him he had lost it. he didn't' even realize it had been lost. what!?!? not even a little stress? argh! horseshoes up your ass. lucky fucker for no good reason.

the moral: there is no moral. i used to believe in karma... that those who did good would have good returned, that those who were assholes would get theirs. but it never seems to happen. so i've lost faith in it.

life happens.

my theory is that those who are capable, wind up with responsibility. those who can't really deal with life, get to float through without having to. what. the. fuck.

figures, don't it.

well, happy new year everyone.

(just wait till you hear my thoughts about new year's resolutions....)