oh lord....

[rant]*

god help me. or maybe that should be god help my family and friends.

for most of my life, i have always tried to do the right thing - especially with other people. this often means i have ignored what i wanted. or needed. but to be honest, mostly wanted.

this means i've been a "good person". a gentleman. i won't say a prince, or a king, or a dupe. but i've never taken advantage of a situation, or especially of a person at a time when they were vulnerable.

i'm not a saint. but i do try and listen. to turn the other cheek. to be gentle. supportive. nurturing. an approach many people do not.

i don't believe the grand gesture resolves everything when you have missed all the small things that are really important. i don't believe i should have to ask you for something you borrowed. i don't think i should have to nag about something if you made the offer.

so.... i'm starting to call a spade a spade.

you made an offer with strings. my reply? no thanks, i don't do offers with strings - that's not an offer. you backpedaled. ok, i feel a little guilty that i probably hurt your feelings when you meant well - but that often makes it worse because it shows just how thoughtless you are.

you say something like "I guess what I am seeking most of all is your accepting the situation and getting on with our lives". my reply? get over yourself - it's obvious after 10 years you are the only one who can't let go.....

empowering? hell yah.

good? errr.... probably not..... but for now, i'm flinging some shit back - because frankly i'm tired of your expectations that i'll shovel it for you, or just put up with it.

i love you all, but at some point you can just kiss my ass.

[/rant]

* not directed at any of my readers, as i a) have better communication with any of you than my own family, and b) have none

eula....

Anyone else think that some of the terms of the end-user license agreement on some of the "free" services out there are getting ridiculous?

"...shall exclusively own all now known or hereafter existing rights to the Submissions of every kind and nature throughout the universe and shall be entitled to unrestricted use of the Submissions for any purpose whatsoever, commercial or otherwise, without compensation to the provider of the Submissions."

Not to mention the data tracking, albeit anonymous.... there's a boatload of money in that. Don't let them fool you.

And no, that's not Facebook.... it's MyWebSearch toolbar, who has an eula that refers to separate eula's for services provided by other vendors that are integrated into the toolbar.

At least Google is fairly up front about trying to control the world's data - for good. I think they mean for the responsible use and freedom of access, but their wording makes me think they want full control, forever.

Just a random Saturday morning thought.

note to self....

Check zoom setting when taking self-portrait with son.